Dreams.
Dreams of new places to be traveled.
Dreams of new adventures to be had.
Dreams that are waiting to be found. 

Some of my dreams may be crazy, impractical and out of reach. But these dreams are still beautiful, and I'm still pursuing them. I'm not letting "no" stand in my way. 

This is my first time trying a digital painting that is mainly just filters on basic pieces. Here's the link to the tutorial I followed. 

Today I feel like I can fly again. And that's really all that matters. So I will fly and not doubt. 

If you have read my about me page, seen my instagram, visited my apartment or just talked to me, you will probably know that I love cacti. I'm not sure why I love them so much; maybe its because they are resilient little plants that rarely die. Currently I have about seven in my apartment. They sit on a little sill by my front door and they make me smile whenever I walk past them. 

Good friends are like cacti. They make me smile. They brighten my day. They are resilient. And yes sometimes they can be a bit prickly but I love them nonetheless. I'm thankful for my friends.

Monday. Dreary. Cold. Papers. Tests. Projects. 
Senior year of college is stressful and there are way to many decisions to be made. At times its overwhelming; today is one of those days. 

I'm choosing to smile. Do I feel like smiling? No. Do I need to smile? Yes. 

Since Grammar School this has been my signature smiley face to doodle. Big grin and big eyes. Familiar and happy. Recently I've been exploring hand lettering; so lets throw some one here too. 

Museums and I have a love/hate relationship. I love seeing the creativity of artists from different times and walks of life. I hate feeling compelled to see every piece of art and read every description. 

Today my roommate and I visited the Columbus Museum of Art. On a normal museum trip I would make a plan of attack and then systematically work my way through the art till I had seen every piece and read every description, taking mental notes and learning as much as I could. But today was not that kinda of museum trip day. For the first time ever I just wandered. No plan. No order. And to my surprise it was liberating. We walked into a gallery with screens, mirrors and projectors; it was mesmerizing watching the colors and light reflect and dance across the room.

And instead of reading the descriptions we took selfies. When we walked out of the gallery I had a quick feeling of panic; I didn't know the artist, I didn't know the title of the work. But tonight when I sat down and looked at the pictures I didn't care about the artist or the title; all that mattered was that I had a great time with my roommate. We don't get to have adventures super often, so this time was special.  

In 10 years I would rather be able to look back at the pictures we took of ourselves than recognize the installation in a book. So I plan on taking more selfies with my friends, and reading less art work descriptions. 

Shoutout to AO adventures. 

Doubt. Imagine a tiny, little monster that lives in the back of your head. Fuzzy, blue; with maybe a few horns.  He doesn't always show his ugly head, but when he does it can be crippling. Usually he plants little seeds that seem to grow and take control. But you don't have to water those seeds. 

We all have doubt (your's might be purple with three eyes); but its how we handle those doubts that define how we move forward. My desire is to look forward and not be afraid of doubt. I know my little monster will always be around, and sometimes his seeds are warranted....BUT I'm not going to let the fear of him control me. So I'm throwing out my large watering can and getting an eye dropper.  

I'm moving forward with strong and active faith. It's time to realize my tomorrow.

​ And Doubt, I won't be afraid of you anymore.